Well this is an overview of whats happening so far. i have applied to the police, should hear back from them in march or sooner i hope! also hve applied to the Army, im thinking REME or RMP, But shall have to see if i can do them.
kinda odd as this is a private post no one will ever see it, maybe ruth, If you are Stop! you nosey person!
Yeah so ruth been dating her for a little while now few months? something like that. it's all going pretty well, but she is off of aussie land for 6 months! we have agreed to see how it goes, as im focusing on improving my life at the moment and wont exactly want to meet anyone else while she is gone so could work, or she could come back a differnt person, only time will tell i guess.

my hands are bloody freezing, just been for a run with my sister, getting fit! so im typing with my fingers like i have arthritace, cant spell that.

anyway the reason im writing in this agian is so i can actually remember my life when im old ill know where the time went, or some one else will know what i did! might let ruth read a page of my diary, as she let me read a part of hers, who knows !! untill next time.


'A lie, a kiss with opened eyes'

In a world that makes me cry, I'm only happy when i'm high.

Bored bored bored, sigh nothing to do or watch. Just gonig to curl up and sing to my self *rocks

mood: sad music: Schism

Didnt Get the job in BB, apparently i wasnt Happy enough? and gave off a bad vibe. IM FUCKING HAPPY. Sigh
At least my Schism CD came and im listening to that right now, as there is no one to talk to or play wow with, Or anything.
on a side note my family want to move Away from This Hell whole that is marlborough, Fantastic, ill be unhappy and Friendless. I give up. Iv tried to be nice and happy and i cant be botherd anymore, Ill just turn into a moody fucker who doesnt use any emotions, Which is What i am if i dont Try it appears.
Sarah always Says i seem emotionless. maybe i am?

i breath in , i breath out
i reach in , i reach out
i look high , i look low
but what for i don't know

life is a bitch then you die
you think you got time but it aint on your side
and one day you're here , the next day your gone
i aint got a clue what the fuck,s going on.

mood: blank music: Schism

Pinch me, is this real?
I'm on a one way ticket out of loserville
Now I'm off the social flat line
Things are so good that I'm
Taking down my star-trek shrine

Haha Great lyrics to be honest. The lyrics are from son of dork, which apparently is a guy from busted, BUT i dont care i like the song =p

it's hard to look in the mirror these days when everyone has everything you'd rather be.

mood: cold

Dost thou have a girlfriend?: Yes
Whats her name?: Sarah (or Hunnie-Bun :P)
Her age?: 18
Height?: 5'..something.. short lol.
Weight?: 8 Stone
Eye colour?: Brown
Hair colour?: Dark Brown and Red.
Does she style her hair?: Yes?
What doth she talk aboot?: Lots of everything.
Is she a gooood kisser?: Muchly so.
Is she shy?: Around other people.
Is she smart?: When she wants to be.
What style of clothes does she wear?: Smart and Black.
Any jewlery she wears often?: No.
How aboot braces? have them?: No.

You Together...
How long have you been together?: nearly 11 months
When is your anniversary?: 12th of April
Would you consider it a serious relationship?: Yes.
How and When did you meet?: At a train station on 11th of April.
When did you decide you liked her?: From the moment i first talked to her.
Are you happy?: Indeed.
Do you lovumms her?: Yeah.
How much?!?!?: More than anything.
Are you in love?: Yep.
Honestly, how long do you think you'll be together?: Forever.
Would you die for her?: Indeed.
Is she the most perfectest girlfriend ever?: Indeed.

Have you guys...
Had your first kiss?: Yes.
If so, where?: Train Station.
Cuddled together?: yes
Play with her hair?: yes
Have you told her that you love her?: yes
Have you made out with her?: yes
Done anything else?: yes
Want to do anything else?: yes
Like what?: move out and stuff.
Ever done something you regret with her?: nope

About You...
Have you ever been dumped?: yes
Have you ever dumped anyone?: yes
Has your heart ever been broken?: yes
Have you ever been on a real date?: yes
If so, where?: movies
Have you ever cried over a girl?: yes
Ever cheat on her?: no
Dost thou believe in love at first sight?: lust at first site
Are you in need of a hug?: indeed
How bout a kiss?: indeed
Are you in need of anything else?: indeed

Other People...
Is anyone jealous that you have her?: im sure lots of people
Does anyone say you're cute together?: yep
Do you prefer group dates or alone?: alone
Do your friends like her?: yes
Does your family like her?: yes

Random....
Dost thou both have a lot in common?: hope so
Where is your favourite place to hang out?: my room
What song reminds you of her?: that counting crows song.
Do you consider yourself to be lucky to have her?: yes
What's your favourite thing aboot her?: eveeerything
Dost thou think aboot her every second of your day?: yes
Dost thou smile when you think aboot her?: yes
Is she romantic enough for you?: yes
Can she get annoying?: yes
Dost thou lovumms her anyway?: yes
If you could tell her one thing, what would it be?: i love you
Do you want to be together forever and live happily ever after?: yes

Whopp, havnt done this in a long time, aaaanyway forced to by my girlfriend sarah =p Im fine.. tired but fine Bye bye

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold utopian dream

You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?

I see your picture
I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you

mood: lonely music: Incubus

Havnt posted in aaaaages... Well hers an update.. New gf<3 Sarah.. :P erm... not much else...
Yeah anyway look at this.. its so true

ita in vita ut in lusu alae pessima jactura arte corrigande
"As in life, so in a game of hazard, skill will make something of the worst of throws"

Iv just realized it says Event.. ^^^ just up there lol , funny cos nothing 'eventful' actually happens to me.

anyway Another Boring post abut nothing in particular is in order dont you think? yes.. is the answer.

So,let me think what has happend.. Well Nothing... i work alot And then go down the pub, I know i know.. you want to be me, well tough i'm the only one with that curse :p

soo.. Yeah im still not sleeping.. 6 -7am has become my bed time wonderful.. while you lot are happily asaleep .im up on my computer being bored.. or walking aimlessly around town grrrrreat.

Anyway Bye bye fuckers xxx



'this is for lovers ..running away..just for today'

mood: pessimistic music: Wolfman & peter doherty - for lovers

Single and stuff...Yeah broke up with jools Heh.. Sorry i havnt made many posts you can see, as most of them are private, for my eyes only :P...anway.. lifes dull heh.. single bored...In debt.. shit really.. im really hoping to go to reading.. hoping to save and stuff, never know might go... only thing im looking forward to this year.

Whaaat else is happening... hm my motorbike is still messed up. .o can't ride it. my thumb has been hurting lot too, as i borke it and had a couple of pins in it a while ago.. but is still weak:( Not much else in my life.. pretty boring.. oh well Bye bye

 'Love is just another word for pain.. its a broken record repeating the same...when you want it not thier. .when you have it you dont care.. when you loose it.. it swollows you in the end.'

mood: blah music: The GetAway - shell never understand

Ello, im tirededed :( so whats happend to me.. i got a new job! Yay finalyl im not poor agian and can get dunk wh000t, i dont think much else has happend really.. yup im boring like that.. so im going to leave it bee
bye bye

mood: drained music: Matchbook romance

Argh got woken up By jools god damn it.. i want to lay in :( Meh anyway i have to go to my local town to hand in some aplication forms.. for jobs i dont realyl want.. as then ones i do want.. dont want me! lol sucks to meh :P

Bye bye

mood: aggravated music: Get up kids

New to LJ.... ooO so pretty lol anyway..yes im new and stuff.. thankyou and goodbye

mood: hungry music: Yellowcard

Deprressed... and alone..

Hey Hey, Me Agian. I had to go to the hospital today :O But just for a check up on my hand... its all healed now but it still aches alot, just got to fix my bike and im awwwway hehe

I just woke up from a little nap during the day... i mena wtf.. so a week ago i didnt sleep.. and now i take naps? thats fucking hilerious! and now i feel crap... never nap... argh. im Having nightmeres, well not really.. but jsut images... like an old lady donig a lazy eye thing o.O scary and the guy from jeepers creepers.. some scary shit i tell thee.

Im back at college.. and doing work.. haven forbid. Oh well had to happen some time. all i need now is a job ..damn im in so muuch debt sucks..... oh weeel live goes on..and on.. and on..and..yeah LOL

i feel like i have to do soemthing.. or im forgetting something.. it's a realyl odd feeling, and if i dont find out soon oem one is gonig to have to lock me away... hmm i definatly am weirder then normal.. kinda scary Ha,.... oh well you can deal with it

i found so many people that hate emo kids lol... i mean.. what the hel.. Yeah maybe we are supposed to be more emotional.. then normal 'men' but jsut because you fags want to act hard and not let out your emotions doesnt mean you have to put us down... gah well im me and if you dont like it.. you can torment me.. like a good little mosher haha

I havent really got much to say now... havnt had the most intresting beggining of the week... damnit. ill update you as it comes youngans.. hehe
Bye Bye


'Staring at this mirror and I'm wondering who you are'

Hey hey Im Back.. yay? hmmm.. sucks.. ..ooOOOOoo i get my new phone!.. nokie 3300 Ha.. i only got it cos it was an mp3 player and a phone.. i cant afford both seperatly :P Ah well.....Man.. im caring too mcuh about my phone, im gonig to be shopping at ikea when im 30 arnt it? {shivers} fuck no.

i bought billy talents album.. and its great.. greeat greeeat, yeah you get the point, all good songs Yum.There's Nothing To Loose, When No one Knows your Name. There's nothing to Gain, But The Days Dont Seem To Change'.
Ha Good lyrics

It's Only 12:23 AM and im already tired.. What the fu... lol.. oh well im not complaining, Maybe ill start to feel better and sleep like a 'normal' person Haha if their is such a thing.

i go Back to collegE tomorrow... But Can i Be Arsed.. probably not... just gonig to get stoned? yup... oh and while i tihnk of it.. my sis got peeeved i didnt mention it was her birthday on boxing day lol..well.. there you go.. i mentioned it, stop whining :P ah i love her really.. But keep it quite.. or ill 'bust a cap in yo ass foo' haha

right i think im gonna go to bed.. Beddy bies.. mm sleep Yay things are looking up..anyway.. peace out Bye bye xx

Ooooo i fell asleep last night lol im quite proud, i must have got at least 3-4 hrs sleep :D whooooo although i still feel my same shitty self.. damn it >.<
Oh well i'm going to kats for like a week today..Argh i still haven't told my dad i want a lift lol i Dont Think He will Be too Happy To Be honest haha

So Yeah this will Be MY Last update to the site for a weeek.....not that anyone actually cares lol.. but oh well Just telling my self really.

My new phone i orderd didnt come.. God damn it! Ok well the post hasnt come apparently.. F..ing post men.. i needd that phone for when i go up kats.. so i Have a phone..... my one doesnt work Argh.. its one of those old ones..liek they had in the first matrix.. haha now yo usee how old it is.

HmHmhmhmhm
Wow i look rough... i mean uber rough.. like uber uber.. why the fuck does kat find me attractive lol? ill never know Then agian How does anyone find me attractive :O Nevermind...
so yeah.. im hungry.. random thoguht there brb im gonan get food haha
ahhh here we go a bacon bagle with Philadelphia.. you know my ex gf becky showed me this..... well atleast she was useful for something Haha Harsh.. but meh she deserves it aaaal.. it alll i say Haha {im a good little emo boy, bitching about his ex, Although im not crying.. i mean it was a good thing we split up lol} Right i best pack and get ready...but im still hungry.. wtf lol.. i swear i should be fat the amount i eat.. hehe.. no offence if you are..vertically challenged Haha O.O

I Watched fight club agian last night.. I really love that film.. i must have watched it like.. 20 times this week hehe... that makesme sound lik a lay about... well thats what i am! so it should lol
So right.. how calm is a hindu cow? if you know the awnser.. i dont really care.. its usless info that i jsut made you think aobut hahaha.... Lets make bombs out of saop! haha lets not.. i dont feel like blowing Anyone up ....today Haha..Yeah im joking..

Anyway.. oh yeah! matt doesnt like emo.. and doesn't let me listen to it while hes around.... WHAT have people got agaisnt emo.. i swear alot of my freinds hate it.. What did it ever do too you o.O we are always too busy crying to do anythnig that could make anyone hate us lmao
So yeah.. omg he carved emo sucks into my desk.. cheeky wanker....Grrr {varnishs desk} and matt was talknig to becca this morning.. and she wanted to wake me up! on the web cam or soemthing!.. both as bad as each other...{locks them up}
right im off to kats bye bye sexy people..
xxxx